brendonsays

i'm having sleepless nights, someone talk to me if you are seeing this right now... i really need someone to talk to... sigh...
i'm getting ipod nano in 2 weeks time really excited...
:]

i want a guitar, very badly, and cash, and an ipod, and good results of course, and not to screw it up, and also want myself to be happy and live life to the fullest, hahas,,,,

i'm freaking tired right now, yeap,,,, so i'm gonna sleep soon, hahas, see ya

erm,, what is love, love is a feeling of affection,, okay.,,.. but seriously, some people take love as a game, a maze?, a racing car, to know how fast they could go ?? nowadays, youngsters are like having 50 over ex?? it is amazing to hear that, teenage girls having sex at a young age, having numerous sex partners>> that is just fuck... this is just stupid and dumb,,

they think, having a girlfriend or boyfriend is good? and what if they break and think that it is heartbreaking,? this is the dillema their thinking,
well, here is the answer, dont sit on the fence youngsters, its bad for your ass, seriously...

anyway, gonna buy an electric guitar, epiphone les paul special II....love it

Hi,Phua here... hahas...i am currently still in sin, sigh...




i need a litle more luck than a little bit...

supp, i'm back from a dead blog... pretty much lazy to go update or post ...
haiz... school is getting better,friends and life,,, much more better than the usual lazy me,,, hahas, did my homework already, just science module test laft,which is module 6 week 1... shall study during the upcoming one week break... i'm not going to thailand,); sad, and disappointed,,, haiz, guess life is'nt that fair,and my performance for sports this year was okay in general, for cross-country, i did well, like the wings XC and swift XC, i manage to get top 10 to top 15, but for track, it was'nt that good, but still okay, my joints are hurting like mad, Mr Guy says i'm growing... maybe thats the truth, hahas, i got a new phone, Samsung Omnia ll, nice phone, really happy with this phone, this week was a laughter, jungle Speed, hahas, it was so funny, hahas, and this post is really long and my eyes are hurting, as i did'nt post at all the last decade,everything is going well for me, i plan to work hard towards my goal,even if its hard to achieve it...

Its MY BIRTHDAY!

had a race today, 2 days after that, ITS MY BIRTHDAY! hahas, had two presents alrerady, hahas,
finding and looking for a phone, not sure about the model going to buy, but looking forward to buy one this summer,
bishan was full of people, and new MRT line was fucking complicated, i hoped on a train back, it was full of old people and soap.smelly jock hands and body odour,thinking of buying a blackberry model, or perharps a sony erricsson, but the new model looks pretty fucking awesome too, so still working my brain to think about the models to buy...
you know what,counsellors are such whores, i have good friends who are counsellors, and i am not critising them,rather i dont like mrs Lu, and i shall blog about her &%*^%&*&Q*#((Q*)*!(&*^$(&*@&&$@&*@%^%^^&#^*&^%$#@$^&*UI(*^^$$@#%$^%&&()((**&^%%#@#@$%R%&^Y*(*^&^$!
DONE!





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HEY, SUPP, I'M BACK!
after reviving this blog, back with no outings, late nights and beer...
fucking hate the boredom
hahas, today was training,(as usual)
contacted old time friend hui wen, missed her actually , hahas,
goodbye suckers!

have not been posting for quite sometime now...really tired after a week of the holidays... well,had a race yesterday,not so good,not so bad,got my first bday present, my bday is on 22th, and got my first one already,cousin got a running sunglass from europe, whhooo! must be expensive... ohh,well,thanks!well,gotta go!

i'm having nightmares these days, like almost everytime i close my eyes...
whats happening, it all feels so cold, and lonely, just as it seems like something bad is gonna happen... whats wrong...
i dont know...
it was open house yesterday, wow, it was a tiring piece of shit...
well, not exactly fun though, but still enjoyed myself...
its a sunday, its been fast, with alot of things in my mind...
so much left to do,so much left to say,so much left to prove,
still i cant keep my eyes of you...
i was lost,theres something i need to know,i just cant remember, whats wrong with me?
i seem so different back then and now... seems weird, every since , nightmares came...




'sometimes i try to hide,what i feel inside'

Slept well last night,WOOHOO!
Had a nightmare when i dose off, it was scary, all the pain,
found out something about myself, well, i did'nt expect myself to be like this but,
its nice,,,



'Do You Even Know How To Kill Me?'

well, this week has hectic! but throughtout, it was fun and all, mrs tan gave us a talk, hahas, so stupid lets see,
PORN,SEX,GIRLS,BGR,MOLEST,RAPE,TEENS AT LAW,
ya,
well, something happe between trust,well, okay, lets say i lied a few times, but have you thought that somethings maybe true, oh well, cause now you dont! oh, well thats thats,
guess i wont be hearing things from you, from now on...


damn i remember i looked like a dog during thursday night when three miss dudes punked me... damn!
oh well, i laughed about it after that ... hahas... it was funny though...

it will be tough for me,
it would be hard for me,
it would be easier if you did'nt,
it would be good,but it has all withered,
it would be a need,
but
it was true for me...):


okay, released all emotions there,,,
pheww! anyway getting a new phone for my Bday...
dont know what to get, probably Iphone...





'It Was True For Me'

just came back from OBS...
Was Super Fun...hahas
SUISEN!
it was the funniest group ever, our group rocks!
hahas
thats all for the update...
slept from 4pm to 8am...! shiok!


"Cause i dont know, how to make a feeling stop"

Things I know about you

1. Your reading my comment
2. Now your saying/thinking thats a stupid fact.
4. You didnt notice that i skipped 3.
5. Your checking it now.
6. Your smiling.
7. Your still reading my comment.
8. You know all you have read is true.
10. You didnt notice that i skipped 9.
11. Your checking it now.
12. You didnt notice there are only 10 facts

i'll tell...

everthing is just so blank, when is there a time where theres nothing in my mind?


sorry...




'is the evil me gonna come out? or am i just running away?'

I dont know...
about this band... its just so dead... maybe i'll just cancel this whole thing, and get back to the other band... where i could communicate well,
well, i heard that Cf has a band... hmm.... eesshh,,,,

i dont know about myself lately, everything is just so dead, maybe i'll just shut down everything...and tell no one where i'm going...
'i lied'... 'sorry, but i wont tell you the reason either'

this week was okay, fun ... a little... for the TnF finals! whoohooo!



just learned a new song on guitar 'beautiful soul and leavin' by jesse mccartney.'

'i lied'...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIKKI!



i'm okay now la... nothing la... i just hate being accused thats all, hahas
...


and erm, enjoy ...




going back to school this week,i feel better now,rather then the evil me,
hahas,so, cheers...


Phua...

This Week was a blast, i did'nt made it to the finals in 3000m...
it was sad, and so, i plan to work hard ... for both studies and sports!
and whats even worst, i was accuse of saying something i am not suppose to say?
come on... i clarified, it was a misunderstanding, so , to that, i dont wanna be part of the story anymore, just wanna count myself out, and lay back, before the weights fall on me again for some stupid stuff, not saying that it was stupid, but to think of it,
1.i stick my butt out, and say i'm gay to fine info,
2.i tried to find the info as fast as possible.
3.i kept my pipiehole shut, and you accuse me of opeing it, well the fact is that i kept my trap shut...sigh, when i wanted to just be a goof friend, this happens great...!

and when you read this , you will rewind and think that Phua's a big jerk whom i regreted making friends to, and when i say you, its you ...

i just need mundane, somewhere, where no one could interrupt, sigh, i dont wanna talk about this anymore );



School was okay, i dont talk much nowadays though i dont know why , maybe theres just nothing to talk to and no one to,,,
it felt weird to be a loner sometimes, but when time comes, the only thing i could do is just to be present...


So to Idiot, Sorry to whatever i did, and you know, button's waiting,


'take this sinking boat and point it home, you still got time', this is the only thing i could say to you...

1.Brendon Does'nt Keep His Bed.
2.Brendon Has A Sniffing Habit.
3.Brendon Has A Nickname Called Idiot.
4.Brendon Loves Asics.
5.Brendon Says If You Read This Blog Everyday It Will Improve Your Life By 16.8%


okay... quite bored in this long weekend and yeah... parents in taiwan. brother MIA, Grandma ran away,and nationals is two days from now! yay!
i need someone to talk too... feel like a loner these few days, even when i am with my friends,not talking so much either... hahas...
i dont know,i am more to-myself nowadays):


easter day on sunday... i dont know whether i'm free anot, but still if i never go out, i'll make it up to you...

i'm seriosuly not talking much these days,i'm stuck in a dilemma... sigh, firstly its my studies, i suck, so i'm gonna study harder! i dont care whether how stupied i can be! i will score... and for my sports, i have a bad hamstring injury... but trust me... i'll come back, change my events, according to my guy said... i'll bouce back, faster,stronger,and presence will craft the word'celerity' !!! watch out !
i will make a come back! i promise ! ):

damn... was rather piss with my dad... because of results again...
got new spikes- Asics one... felt better in it actually... hahas... previous adidas was also good but for only 400m-800m... haha...
on friday after mac... came back from.. talk to idiot, laugh like hell about my nose... was quite stupid.. then woke up at 10... cause super tired and stuff... hahas.. monday morning... interval.... 88s-84s again ... look forward to it... hahas!
so see ya!
got my internet fixed...yay!